I was struck today for the first time in a long time by a feeling of futility. I ran into a situation I have no control over, no idea what to say or do, no idea what to pray. It is a situation I desperately want to see changed, but it doesn't look like it's going to change.

How do you tell someone who doesn't care anymore that they're worth it, that they're loved, that you care? I know you can't make people see things the way you do. I just wish there was a way to get love through the (seemingly) impenetrable walls people put up.

But this time the crack's too high up, and all I have is a useless battering ram. Useless, because if I do use it, it'll all land on both of our heads and possibly kill somebody.

I guess all that's left to do is say, "Ball's in Your court now, God," and sit down outside the triple-barred door to wait.